NightmarePlot twist: you can't wake up.
ShameWater runs clear; stains still here.
ControlControl is everything. Self-control, that is. Control how you act, what you say, what goes into your body, and maybe — just maybe — you'll be able to control you are. Power is addictive; my drug of choice, but it comes at a cost. You see, what you don't learn until it's too late? Sooner or later, the need for control — controls you.Generally, I’m a good kid. I pay attention in school, earning the high grades that decorate my report cards. I may not be especially popular, but I certainly have friends. I usually do as I’m told, don’t flagrantly disobey rules, and I try hard to please people. I retrace my steps in my mind, searching for the slip — the fall — that landed me here, on this cool, clammy table, wearing not much more than a requisite thin gown.A crisp knock on the heavy wooden door to the exam room startles me, bringing my attention back to my predicament at hand. After
Catch me if you canI’m the anorexic at the local gym whom everybody watches but nobody looks at.I’m the bulimic at school whom everybody pretends not to know about.I’m the girl in your gym class with too many scars to be telling the truth.I’m the kid with her head down in the library who is always “fine.”I’m the boy who 'fell down the stairs'...again.I’m the child who doesn't show up for school lunch because it's too expensive.I’m the teenager living a double life in front of your very eyes.Catch me if you can.
todaybailey says:today could have gone so much betterif i had woken up without a cold sore.shania says:today could have gone so much betterif i had woken up and not had bedhead.zoe says:today could have gone so much betterif i had woken up when my alarm went off.i say:today could have gone so much betterif i hadn't woken upat all.
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better on your floor than ever in my bedi have not slept well without the aid of sedatives since you left.the dreams are screamers that set my lungs on fire and burn my body to bones and when i wake up, it is in a bed of ashes and i am alone to rebuild.i am not a phoenixand i cannot live on smoke.the drugs, they dampen the ground beneath my feet, the air is thick with the tension before a storm that never comes, and i choke on every breath and wake from drowning without remembering the struggle. the memories elude me. the forgetting is, in a way, worse.you used to be able to beat down the blaze, to pull me from the fire-pit before i settled in for the night. you used to make me feel safe.in your bed, with you close, the dreams still came. they didn’t fear you the way they should have. but you displaced them, stood up to them and chased away the dark, and with you next to me, i slept better than i had in a year. because when i woke in the dead of night, when i cried and no one h
I am [not]No one, nowhere, no-when: finally, peace.
The IntrovertAlone I am weaker, but safe.
Promises"Thank you.""For what?""Not leaving."
A Mortal's Love TriangleLoved by Life; betrothed to Death
Breaking EvenBroke her heart.Broke his nose.
Left BehindShe stumbled, but he didn't stop.
InevitabilityNothing escapes its end.The end.
Existing vs LivingDying is inevitable.Living is optional.
My Favourite Love Story...Just you and me. And her.
The Craft of the CraftPoems are sculpted.Stories are woven.
Meta-PhysicalFought writer's block.Lost the plot.
Because I Love You"Because I love you"Saved me.
AddictedMy dearest Drug,I need you.
She promised him forever....Forever never lasts long, does it?
ReincarnationCould you ever love me twice?
DefinitionPretty: Proof six letters mean nothing.
The Path of EnlightenmentThe hardest road leads to yourself.
Blasphemy"Heaven has room for gays" -God
A piece of adviceThose meant to protect usLie
ForecastScars: map of past, not future.