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witness: or, another burden to bear by violetense, literature

on panic attacks and parties by violetense, literature

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on panic attacks and parties

There are so many people and so little space in the Den. The lights are flashing and everybody is moving but nobody really watching as the strobe light pulls frames from a slow-motion slideshow and the noise, it bleeds thick, like slicks of oil that slow your mind and weigh down your limbs. You’re drowning, drowning in a sea of bodies that move with the coordination of a single-minded monster, drowning in the waves of closeness, waves of sickness, waves of nausea that wash over you with every gasping breath. Fight it back, ride it out, find your way to the surface and open your eyes, you are not an animal of prey—just stay in y

del otro mundo by violetense, literature

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del otro mundo

Home is where the heart is, tu madre siempre te decía, porque en tu casa, eres querida. When in Rome, tu padre siempre te aconsejaba, porque en tu casa, la familia tiene estándares para mantener. Pero a veces, home al caso ser Rome, para todo el consuelo te ofrece, y a veces, misplace y displace se parecen como escalas de gris en un mundo de blanco y negro. Si el hogar es donde vive el corazón, dime donde tú en cajas– tu madre, que te enseñó abrir la mente y el corazón, nunca te alertó contra de los riesgos de dar de tú misma demasiado libremente. Sabes donde está tu corazón tan

writing home by violetense, literature

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writing home

"Home is where the heart is," your mother always told you, because in your house, you are loved. "When in Rome," your father always advised you, because in your house, your family has standards to uphold. But some days, "home" might as well be "Rome" for all the comfort your house holds, and sometimes, "misplace" and "displace" feel like shades of grey in a black-and-white textbook. If home is where your heart is, then tell me where you belong-- Your mother, who taught you to open your mind and your heart, never warned you about the danger of giving of yourself too freely. You know where your heart is as surely as you know that you can't

things of which i have learned to let go by violetense, literature

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things of which i have learned to let go

my past with you and the future i'll never have with you, and the recoil of a shotgun. the trigger. cordite, copper, basil, beer, words, the writing on the wall, penned notes not written in ink. handfuls of sand. old seashells in buckets that sit on the shelf and have no meaning. buttons unbuttoned and buttons no more, ends that don't meet, weak links in the chain, projection, resistance, transference, expectations, both mine and those of others. misconceptions. labels, diagnoses. bruises that bloom like wilted roses and stain your skin, pounded flat. scars that fade and scars that won't, scars you see and scars you don't. lock-back b

better on your floor than ever in my bed by violetense, literature

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better on your floor than ever in my bed

i have not slept well without the aid of sedatives since you left. the dreams are screamers that set my lungs on fire and burn my body to bones and when i wake up, it is in a bed of ashes and i am alone to rebuild. i am not a phoenix and i cannot live on smoke. the drugs, they dampen the ground beneath my feet, the air is thick with the tension before a storm that never comes, and i choke on every breath and wake from drowning without remembering the struggle. the memories elude me. the forgetting is, in a way, worse. you used to be able to beat down the blaze, to pull me from the fire-pit before i settled in for the night. you used to

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del otro mundo by violetense, literature

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del otro mundo

things of which i have learned to let go by violetense, literature

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things of which i have learned to let go

better on your floor than ever in my bed by violetense, literature

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better on your floor than ever in my bed

Cathie by violetense, literature

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Cathie

Salt-and-pepper hair contrasts sharply with the crisp, starched pillow; bone-thin arms resemble bed rails-- tears in my eyes, the morphine drip in your vein. My inner rage refutes your calm acceptance. You ask if we are waiting for you to die: no. We are waiting for a miracle, we are waiting for you to heal-- We are waiting for something that will not happen. We are stretching for something that is out of reach. We are holding onto our obsolete hopes, the small fragments of our lives so closely, we cannot see the bigger picture of eternity. In a paradox, God is calling you clearly, but we can't seem to hear His voice-- only the silence ri

Wake-up call by violetense, literature

Invocation by violetense, literature

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Invocation

Speak through me, Muse, and sing me the tale Of that girl unskilled in the ways of the world-- The intrepid wanderer, Seeking truth for years on end, Oblivious to the dynamics around her As others talk with their eyes and dance with their words. Many the nights she's lain awake, Living the hurts of her friends, powerless to help. Trying to save the world When she can't even save herself. She wrote dark storms of words And ascertained the deceptive nature of journals. She lied to others and she lied to herself. She learned that sharp words leave scars, Struggling each day to open her eyes And walk toward the light; Yet despite her best inte

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Make a Difference #177 by 3wyl, journal

Make a Difference #177

Sep 30, 2012

Artists join deviantART to share their art and appreciate others. Due to the many artists out there, it's easy to get towed under and generally obscured from the public. Make a Difference aims to do exactly that. This series of articles will hopefully make a difference to you as well as the artists featured weekly. Just by giving one minute of your time to write constructive comments, favourites and even watches will make a difference to these artists. ~BlueColoursOfNature (https://www.deviantart.com/bluecoloursofnature)'s photographs are not only colourful, but beautiful too in both concept and execution! As shown below, BlueColoursOfNature (https://www.deviantart.com/bluecoloursofnature) touches upon a variety of photography

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Artist // Student

United States
Deviant for 11 years
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"People will kill you over time, and how they'll kill you is with tiny, harmless phrases like 'be realistic.'" --Dylan Moran

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Markus Zusak, Malcolm Gladwell, Alice Sebold, Haruki Murakami, Charles Seife, Ted Chiang, Chuck Palahniuk, Stieg Larsson, Neil Gaiman

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mechanical pencil, ADD, whatever camera is on hand at the moment

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Linguistics, early childhood development & education, communication sciences & disorders

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violetense

Feb 9, 2016

Campus ED Support Group -- Thoughts?

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Not sure where to start with this subject, but please, if you have a few minutes to spare, I would greatly appreciate it if you could offer me your thoughts or any input you might have on how I should proceed here. Quick recap:  I know that I haven’t been very active online for a while, much less on dA, but the past few months have been a struggle for me in a number of ways.  The biggest change is I started university in the fall; in the past 6 months, I’ve moved out of state and have been adjusting to dorm housing, the distance from family and friends, a different academic environment, and an entirely unfamiliar community.  Alth

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violetense

Jan 3, 2015

I'm still in shock over the Daily Deviation--special thanks to the generosity of :devSilverInkblot: and :devIrrevocableFate:! I can't tell you how much it means to me.

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violetense

Apr 8, 2014

Hiatus

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I realize that I've been inactive lately, and although I miss the community at dA, I'm taking some time right now to get my life in order.  Things are rough right now, but I hope I'll be back soon. Take care, bekah

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Dec 27, 2018

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